Hello,

This is the 2020 version of me writing to everyone of you who can read this old blogger. I cannot believe I still have access to this blog like, oh my god. I've been through so much in my life and it's kinda cringe-y reading all these old post but don't worry self, I will not delete them, let your post be an embarrassment and at the same time, a journey of your growth.

Thank you for staying with this blog. I have updated the themes so that I can read my old entries better. Gosh, I am just searching for this 10th edition book and now I am writing a post to this blog. 

Maybe this would be my last post for this platform since I am running another blog that is like 10 years old. I just cannot believe how powerful the internet. If someday this blog gets deleted, I am happy that somehow you read my recent post.

The world is experiencing a pandemic now (covid-19) I hope you are safe wherever you are. Please don't forget to protect yourself and your family. May we all heal as one. 

Don't forget to pray and thank God for everyday. He's always there, listening.

Let's take everything slow and last long.

P.S

Stan iKON :) 

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IF I AM

"i will never leave you, i will not let you down."

it's been a while then, lemme say that this past week was one of those irritating yet full of surprises week for me. my prof wasn't there for four consecutive days (including the thursday and friday last last week.). and i offended someone. hey, laugh, it's only a joke, i didn't mean too, but he said that t'was nothing, i'm hoping that t'was nothing, actually, it's very very embarassing, were not that really the typical close friends, yeah i guess, huh, and then full of thesis statement. some sort of practice and submission will be this coming monday, honestly saying, done the chapter one of my english baby thesis, hmm. i'm plannin that it'll be printed on monday, yes, great idea. LOL.

Date: September 08,2008 Day: Monday

birthdays: Mama mary, Kuya Kim, Ate mai, and iantot.

mission accomplished for iantot's surprise gift, actually, i don't think it was the typical gift, t'was wrapped by green gift wrapper, and the only thing that is in the box are, Song lyrics, Dramatic letter and a keychain, it was funny then, after i gave that gift to him, i walked away and went to the powder room. hahahah, my friends said that i was that reaally damn crazy, . but then, it turned out quite good. yes good. and guess what, we have the same keychain, "infinity chain". mine's pink and him's blue.

(the gift. weeeeeeeeeeeeeee)

(infinity chain.. weeeeeeeeeee)

(iantot and yours truly: first pic.)

bottom line: it's the thought that counts.

renafterhours: IF I AM: 16th post

I hate you. stay away from me

later this afternoon, after a long long long weeks, i saw him. the guy who's having the half of my heart. (aw.) as i walked on the corridor of our building floor(3rd). i saw him standing at the wall. i don't know how to greet him. actually, he's with his friends, or i guess blockmates. you know that awkward feeling, that after what happens, actually nothing really intimate happens, it's just that, he was actually a big part of my college life. (im not exaggerating here.).. i deeply known him since january(current year,) it all started with a text message and afterwards the typical "asaran" shared by friends, i was very comfortable when im with him, it feels like i've known him for so long..

i think. we really can talk about anything (under the sun). we stayed up soo late talking about anime. all of it. there's this time that i was very tired and sleepy in class because of him and he was like. duh. 'he's absent,' (very funny though). Honestly at first, i really don't like him. hmm. okay! no doubt, i like his eyes, his the typical 'chinito' which, is listed in my standards(yes, me and my b2 have guy standards,).. yes, and all of a sudden.. poof. a like him a lot. and i don't really know why.. okay. maybe i know why. i just can't admit it to myself that i am really falling for him. the guy who's been so annoying that really push you to kill people on your way. the guy who's really retarted and bastard.. hobbies is playing online games and consistent late in class. the guy who really doesn't know his future. the guy who's i don't know.

and then now. after knowing him that much, after knowing him deeply. and yes, i really fell in love with him and took me about 7 months to forget about him. and honestly, i don't know where will i start. it feels like the first time i saw him and know his name. it feels like that. they're all asking me.." why don't you greet each other?" yes, they're all asking me. not HIM.

i really miss him. really. everytime i saw him, i feel like. crying. okay. im not exagge. it's just that. he's with her now. the girl who's always our topic. the girl his eyeing. but i'm happy for him. atleast. he'll worry his life now. (laugh, it's a joke.)

Please.. Stay away from me. I hate you. i hate you..

i hate you so much that leads me to love you even more.

IHATEYOU-STAYAWAYFROMME

renafterhours: i hate you. stay away from me. : 15th post