i don't have any savings. im doomed, next next week will be our SEMIFINALS EXAMINATION. SUBMISSION OF SIMULATOR. START OF SURVEY INTERVIEW. and a lot more. speaking of simulator, i don't know if we can do that for just a lil span of time. i really need to talk to my groupmates, i don't wanna lose hope. i know we can do it. if there's a will there's a way as is it. lol

yesterday, as i encode our interview about the paralyzed dance instructor. there's this one line that really shot me from where i was sitted. it is said that

Don't waste time feeling sorry for yourself, don't lose hope

come to think of it. i was really feeling sorry for myself and i was really losing my hope. thats what i usually do when i can't get things or can't do things perfectly, i pity myself all the time. well honestly, im quite good right know. i won't worry my life away.. no. i worry my life, a lot. stress,sleepy.stress.sleepy.

what's happening with you people. what's happening with me. i was really really confused. i am not emo. don't label me. i just. don't know what to do. i can't concentrate. i can't.

on the other side.. i saw him already.. after 3 long weeks. i saw him. we where on the school were we do the teaching stuff. my friend said "uy! here he comes." and i said "shhhh." haha. and then he noticed me and said "huwaw. super professional.. and something like.. "hirap ng maraming anak noh"" he was dumb busted. haha. and i thought he was the father.. whuu. just kidding. well i really like him though. yeah. i guess, it's just only an infatuation. the fact that
-he's in your dream every night.
-you want to see him more often.
-you want to talk nonsense things with him.
-you want to be by his side.
-you want to hold his arms.
-you want him to hugg you tight.
-you want him to kiss you goodnight.
-you want him to ask you if your home already.
-you want him to ask you if you already eaten your breakfast.lunch.dinner.
-you want to have the same keychain
-your really longing for him to summ it up.

i hate this feeling. t'was weird.. is this feeling felt by normal person?.. haha. i guess, well maybe i should end this.. i am somewhere in between.. i am nothing in between. worst. am i nothing?..

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